I began as an intern, and was immediately welcomed into a creative world with a hilarious and talented team. It was intimidating to say the least.
But, the year kept rolling on, and I kept learning. Stumbling through frustrations and triumphs. Ugly, selfish parts of my heart surfaced, and God continually kept molding them to His. All the while, I was falling back into a sea of grace from my team members--seriously, these guys&gals are incredible. Every failure was seen as an opportunity for growth, and no one lingered on my "failures".
I'm sitting here with my coffee, and tunes, reflecting on the past year in the church world, and how God has molded my heart.
I'm wired for the Creative. I always have been. It wasn't until I stepped into this church 7-some years ago that I thought excellent art could have a home in the Church. It didn't think it was possible to be pointed to Jesus through a seemingly "secular" song, or through kick-butt production elements.
Boy, was I wrong.
God quickly addressed, and dismissed that mindset. I got involved, and I was hooked. Plus is was a killer way to build up my theatre resume, and get more practice as a vocalist. All along, I felt a tugging at my heart that maybe, just maybe, this could be a venue I could invest my life in. Heart, soul, career, passion. It could all find a home here.
Then this ridiculous voices kicked in:
"Working in a church is settling"
"You won't grow creatively here. It's just a box you'd get stuck in"
I listened to those voices for a long time. Working in a church was a good backup plan, but I'll go do something meaningful and cool with the earlier part of my life.
Of course, God came in with a swift kick in the face.
"What if I want to use you to keep art in the church excellent? What If I want to use you to help guide people back Home through incredible, real, vulnerable art?"
Man, am I glad I heard God's voice. I can't begin to tell you how much I've grown spiritually, emotionally, creatively, intellectually...the list goes on and on (and I don't know any more big words).
I guess my point here is to tell you that God uses the seemingly "ordinary" to do the extraordinary. To build up your heart to His in unexpected ways. If you're following Him, you're never settling--He will use everything to help grow you. And you may just find a deeply rooted passion along the way.
Happy New Year friends.